i miss my bf !!

things really happened too fast .
its too sudden !
i miss my bf . i am at home now and he
is suffering and enduring all the pains
alone all alone in the hospital .
i am so sorry gong gong .
i am not by or side .

i miss you . i really do !
pls recover fast please .
i prayed so so hard . for yor best recovering .
i am missing u so so so much .

how tired i still cant slp .
really cannort .
i wan u back !

no one knows how i feel now .
i cant express it infront him .
cos i dun wan him to worry .
i wan him to have all the best rest and recover fast . !
i want to hear his irritating voice disturbing me
everynight !
i wan his good nyte kiss .
i wan his hug hug .
i wan everything to go back to normal .

its our 20 mths aniversary today .
its today 25.01.2008 .
we were supposed to be enjoying
outside but not in the hospital .

i really dunno wat to do now .
i cant slp
and cant stop thinking bout him . i really cant !

how ? how ?
even now we have put down the fone
as i know he is very tired as he
had a very hard day today .
i have to smile and sae good nyte to him .
and let him slp .
but i still cant get to slp now .
why ?
i really feel like going back to the hospital and
acc him .

this is the very very first tym i felt so so lost .
i am totally lost .
i dunno wat to do now ?
it feels so bad
knowing he is in such a bad situation .
i should not listen to him and leave .
i should stay in the hospital and acc him
.why am i so stupid to go back !
why... MY HEART ACHE !
REALLY
EVERY MINUTES AND SECONDS .
ITS TRUE I SWEAR .

wondering if u are having a good slp now ?
is all your injuries alrytes ?
is the injuries that u did the operation still painful ?
are u sleeping soundly ?

i dunno . ! i really dunno .
i am so sad so sad ......

GONG GONG I MISS YOU SO MUCH SO
SO MUCH .
ITS REALLY THE FIRST TYM THAT I EXPERIENCE THIS
PAIN IN MY HEART .
ITS THE FIRST AND ALSO THE LAST I HOPE!!

I MISS U !
MISS TILL I GOING CRAZY LER !!