TIRED!!

its such a long day today .
woke up in the very early morning and
slept in the very early morning too .

i am so tired ! right now ..
went hospital immediately after
i wake up .
did everything that is supposed to be done .
and went off .

has never felt so TIRED before .
I SWEAR ! ITS SO TIRING .

i am so STRESS . !!
i dunno wat i am stressing .
but its just so stress .
seeing bf so pain .
seeing him so uncomfortable .
tried to smile and laugh but stil to no avail .
has done everything that i can .
but still finds its unacceptable .
my mind is in a great mess .
i am worrying bout everything now !
because i have to bao ga liao all the things now .
i am tired !
what have i missed ? is there still anything that i have not done ?
is there any impt things that i have left out ?
F LARS !!
i am so STRESS . !!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
SAVE ME LARS . .

next i pray is that bf get well soon .
so that things will go smoothly once again .
i need the laughter that he used to have to be back .
i wan him to lessen his burden .
i dun wan see him enduring all his pain anymore .

TO BOYFRIEND : gong stop saying u are useless ok ?
you are not . is just that all the things that u use to have
and do is not convenient for u to have and do it now .
ok . in my heart u are my MR HERO . so stop saying all those
words ok . cos it HURTS me so much .
just bear with everything that you are facing now
and also the pain u are enduring now
rest well and wounds will ge t well very soon ok .
i will always be there with u .
prayers will also be made everynyte by me before
i close and declared the end of the day and also the
tiring day and hoping for a brand new day for u & i .
bear all this in mind kkies . dun ever destest yorself
as u should be glad that u are still around and only suffer
some minor injuries . things will turn out perfectly fine
after a couple of days . get use to it fast alrights ?
i will always be there with u although i might lose
my temple sometimes . but always remember i dun find u
useless cos you are mine and i l0ve u deep down where i didnt
express out much .
take kaires and nights to u bf .
have a nice dream and slp soundly ok .
I LOVE U !!
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HAS NEVER FELT SO TIRED AND STRESS BEFORE

I NEED SOME HELP FROM GOD .

I DUN WAN TO BE DEFEATED SO EASILY

PLS GOD GIVE ME THE WILL TO PRESERVE ON !

i miss my bf !!

things really happened too fast .
its too sudden !
i miss my bf . i am at home now and he
is suffering and enduring all the pains
alone all alone in the hospital .
i am so sorry gong gong .
i am not by or side .

i miss you . i really do !
pls recover fast please .
i prayed so so hard . for yor best recovering .
i am missing u so so so much .

how tired i still cant slp .
really cannort .
i wan u back !

no one knows how i feel now .
i cant express it infront him .
cos i dun wan him to worry .
i wan him to have all the best rest and recover fast . !
i want to hear his irritating voice disturbing me
everynight !
i wan his good nyte kiss .
i wan his hug hug .
i wan everything to go back to normal .

its our 20 mths aniversary today .
its today 25.01.2008 .
we were supposed to be enjoying
outside but not in the hospital .

i really dunno wat to do now .
i cant slp
and cant stop thinking bout him . i really cant !

how ? how ?
even now we have put down the fone
as i know he is very tired as he
had a very hard day today .
i have to smile and sae good nyte to him .
and let him slp .
but i still cant get to slp now .
why ?
i really feel like going back to the hospital and
acc him .

this is the very very first tym i felt so so lost .
i am totally lost .
i dunno wat to do now ?
it feels so bad
knowing he is in such a bad situation .
i should not listen to him and leave .
i should stay in the hospital and acc him
.why am i so stupid to go back !
why... MY HEART ACHE !
REALLY
EVERY MINUTES AND SECONDS .
ITS TRUE I SWEAR .

wondering if u are having a good slp now ?
is all your injuries alrytes ?
is the injuries that u did the operation still painful ?
are u sleeping soundly ?

i dunno . ! i really dunno .
i am so sad so sad ......

GONG GONG I MISS YOU SO MUCH SO
SO MUCH .
ITS REALLY THE FIRST TYM THAT I EXPERIENCE THIS
PAIN IN MY HEART .
ITS THE FIRST AND ALSO THE LAST I HOPE!!

I MISS U !
MISS TILL I GOING CRAZY LER !!

its been so so long since i blog . hahas .
currently in office . !
oh ya . just to update , i found a job .
and frankly speaking . i like this job .
cos its fun with friends here which are
friendly . =)

aint i amazing ?
managed to survive . ! hhaas . and nort
giving up after the first day of job .
its working hrs is the same as the office hour .
although its abit of long . but alrytes lars .
happy with it .
as nort really pressured by the manager .
hahas . she is one of my smoking khakis in the office .
hahhas . she is friendly i can sae .
but can also be strict .
haahs

i am blogging in the middle of my job .
played flash game just now and was rather bored with it .
so decided to blog .
so are u guys wondering why am i doing
all these while working .. hhahahas .
everyone here is bored .
toking and shifting their chairs around
from ttable to table , hahas .

okok . has been fine with bf recently .
he bought a new fone for mi and as well as himself .
hhahhas ,
i gort my lcd tv , bed , and tv console .
and new fone . thanks bf ! l0vees .
but now waiting for my sofa . hahas .
lazy to write ler . brb .
lovees ....

its been so so l0ng since i bl0g again .
i am LAZY . you see .
hahas . everything has been g0ing quite
smoothly for me and bf .
as i am beginning to feel the changes
that he is trying to .

i jus LOVE him so much .
acc bf to go put on new ang kong
its a tiring day i can say .
woke up in the early morning
at eight and have our breakfast opposite .

reach cine at around ten and
begin his enduring of pain
from 11 plus 12 to 6 plus 7 .
hahas . but i guess he is satisfy
with the outcome of the picture that
his fren has done for him . hahas .
and here are the pictures of the nort yet
completed ARTS . !! =.=










the first one is the mask on the side of his leg
but i guess cant be seen clearly as the colours
is nort done yet . but should be done in another 2 weeks .
i am awaiting for the outcome of the whole masterpiece
to be done . hahas . i wan a 3D image one . hahas .

the second one is the fish . which is call "lee yu"
which my dad owns alort in the fish pond at my hse .
hahas . but its different . cos mine bf de does nort need
any oxygen and feeding or even water to survive .
hahas . but wart my dad has needs all this . lalalas
i am LAME . ~~ I ADMIT . !!!!
and the same goes for this as there is still a need for the
colour to get the nicer and clearer pic of it ! . so wait
for a couple of fews later and the masterpiec will be out ! hahas .

and for the last pic . is the overall shading and everything .
erms .n0rt exactly every shading is completed
as colour is nort out so cant do everything . hahas .

ok . en0ugh of my naggings and everything . a few
weeks later . the masterpiece will be out . !!!

hahas . URGENTLY NEEDS A J0B .
theres tons of things that i wish to buy !
eg .(1) my sofa
(2) my LCD or plasma tv
(3) a new bedroom set
(4) a new phone
(5) a new tv console
(6) a huge carpet
(7) a golen accessories
(8) a gucci bag
(9) a DKNY watch
(10) and lorts of shopping spree !!!

ENOUGH ENOUGH !!
i got to earn tons of cash back to enjoy all the
shopping life !!~~ hahs +++))))))

gonna st0p ler . xian is here . g0rt to do j0B hunting ler .
hahas .

LASTLY
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I L0VE MY BF !!!
pls EARN lots of money $$$$
back for me to SPEND . !! PLS . !!
MR KEVIN !!!
wahahhas . l0vees .