thingsaintthesameanymore!

everyone is changing and yes
i am sure i am changing too ...
things changes too fast ...
thinking back about the past
the laughters , the smiles we had together
was already long gone !
i guess we were nv be close as
last tym anymore .
i guess i am the one who change
and has caused us not being able
to be like last tym .
i am sorry if i did any thing wrong
and make you dislike .
memories are always held in my heart .
the many years of friendship ....
i still treasure you as much ..
take v.good care my dearest friend .

thanks alot dardar-kelly
for being there for me whenever i needed
you , you are always my dearest girl ...
i will always remember the smiles and laughters
we had ...
thanks alot ...

you all just simply means alot to me !
take care ~



label : we were once best of best friends ,
and i hope things has not change !

dunno why suddenly got the urge to blog .
but just feeling rather unhappy & stress ..
dun ask me why i also dunno.
after gg out ,
i reach home i like need to explain alot of
things .. i dunno why .
i'm just feeling v.down now !
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were controlling my tears just now
when u are talking to me .
i just feel sad and hurt ..
by the way you act towards me .
things are not gg the way i wants .
i still dun feel any freedom from you
seriously !
i still need to report to u where am i
msg u , who i with and everythings.
just feeling kind of tired of all these .
i just wants to be alone .
i doubt u understand ...
never mind its alrytes !
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you asre still the one who can brighten up
my life ! AH DAO ...
hahas ...

there is a trend of losing money
in my fcuking life now ...
i also dunno wat happens ...
LOSE LOSE LOSE ...

okkays will be back tomolo ...
tired ..
LOVES....
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label:the wonderful days are gone long ago
i'm sorry

okkays . broke up with him !
due to him not being happy with many
guys calling me or many phone calls that i
had !

ah ya i dunno wat he wants .
since he wants a break-up then i
just jolly well agreed to it !
its not as if i need him so so much rytes !
i dun need him lars .
he is just like my FLING !

HAHAS . am at dar hse now !
planning if gg out anot !
will update again !

fcuk ! i am fucking pissed off now ..
watever i do pple see ler not happy !
hey man this is my fcuking life .
no one has the fcuking rights to interfere in
my life .

just leave me alone can ?
i wants to be with who or wat its my
own fcuking decision .
i dun need anyone to comments about my
my decision .
hey i am a human beings i have the fcuking rights
to get my own decision rights !
my blog i have my own fcuking rights .
i dun wanna let anyone see means i dun wan
dun force me to do things that i fcuking dislike !
u really makes me damn pissed off lars .....

FCUKED ! SPOILED MY FCUKING DAY !

IAMWAITINGFORYOURREPLY

things is changing !
quarrel with bf yesterday & even me myself
also dunno because of wat !

and till now i dun receive any phone calls
or even msges from him ! it was nt an easy task
being with a career guy .
i have to be able to get hold of everything .
even now he did not even give me a text i cant call
him cause am worried that i am disturbing him
as he might be with his client !
i really dunno wat i shd do now ....


yesterday through out the whole journey from wrk place
to tpy and to hougang we did not speak to each other !
i dunno wats on his mind ! hey man u dun wan say anything
orr wat how u expect me to know wat the hell
u are thinking right ?
i am nt god leis . i cant read pple's mind !
silence was kept all the way till now .
and i am lost now . things changed too fast
i cant concentrate in doing anything now .
wat has happen now has makes me think back to the past
like how me and shawn relationship was!
it was all along me who gave in throughout the
whole relationship !

I WANT THE SMILES BACK !
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can someone just lend me a hearing ear
or even a hand to let me get back to myself?
before i fall too deep
as i am already falling v.deeply !

i am doing nth everyday at home !
rotting !
waiting for tym to pass .
hais . quite meaningless life i can say

started relationship with andy
on 31.08.08 .
erms dunno if this is wat i want !
he is a career man which places his career in
the v.first place and meet up for
just a few hrs like 1-3 at a day !
is all this wat i want ?
i myself also dunno .
hais . hope things change for the better in
the up-coming days !
but thinking another way maybe this kind of
relationship is much more better
as we can avoid quarrels.
ah ya i also dunno lars ..

going work later .
hope it will be a smooth one !
=)
dar i miss you !
amy pah ... pls be quick ! we are LATE!!!!!

its been damn freaking l0ng tym since i blog
this shows that i am not a loyal blogger
as due to my BORED-NESS and so i am
blogging now !!

win money and within two days everything is gone ...
not worth not worth ..
feeling v.v.sleepy now .
dun ask me why cos i also dunno !

okkays . going to genting o the 12.09.08
hope things wont go wrong and plan wont be cropped up !

pple said i changed !
did i ?
feeling kind of stress recently !
i dunno why .. thinking back about the
past makes me smile!
i dun stress . but now i stress
i dunno why
feeling freaking tired of my life now .
really tired !
i no longer have any strength to carry on
and get on with my life with smiles anymore!
WHY WHY WHY ?

i myself also dunno wat the hell am i stressing
i am tired .
guess i got not enough slp ?
i also dunno . i just know i need MONEY
so mmuch !

LOSING ?
am i afraid ?
i dunno . i am used to it !
10 times i gamble i only get to win once or twice
so whats the fcuking use of gambling ?
aint i STUPID !!!!!!!!!!!!

getting quite stress up over all the relationships
i am so tired ~
would u all mind giving me a break '?
i just wish to be alone .
ah ya FUCK I DUNNO WAT THE HELL I WANT LA

JUST FUCKING STRESS NOW !!!!!!!